I’m so glad 2015 is here! I experienced a lot of ups and downs last year but one of the main things I realized is that I need to take some time for myself.
Time to figure out why I always end up on the short stick when it comes to relationships. This blog is specifically meant to record my strategies and feelings as I travel through this year. I’m hoping to be in a much better place by 2016, Mentally and physically.
My first challenge is… I am going to increase my physical activity. I’m 54 years old, I’ve already done the gym thing, the aerobics classes, Zumba etc. I was even a dance teacher for years but now, I want to have fun while getting some exercise. My last relationship with Jack was a wonderful experience. One of the things we loved to do together is ride bikes. We rode downtown, at the beach, around neighborhoods etc. So, I went for my first bike ride today in almost a year around the neighborhood of my new guy friend. I went alone and it was refreshing and melancholy at the same time.
A few more things I’m going to accomplish during this year is to get more organized. I am an artist in my spare time and I dream of quitting my day job to paint and create full-time. A single woman with a mediocre income cannot possibly make it by selling a painting every once in a while. This brings me to another goal this year… Grow my business. Paint, market my work and paint some more!
The most important goal of mine is make my heart whole again. During my last breakup with Jack 10 months ago, I lost something. I lost a big chunk of my heart… I have no more faith that there are any good men out there. I finally do not see relationships through rose-colored glasses any longer. I doubt that I will ever get married again. I can’t lose the only piece of my heart that remains. I’m currently dating a terrific guy. I have no reason to question his motives at all… But it’s hard for me to put my guard down. I can’t seem to see a future with a man or count on promises. To me, promises are usually broken. I don’t want to feel this way… I want to trust and believe… This is my journey.
If you have things that need working on in your life, I invite you to follow my blog. We can do this together.
Becoming better today than yesterday!
Happy new year, a better life and healthier mindset!